CANCER and FAITH

Religion and faith is not an easy thing for me to talk about. While I have always been a Christian, except in a general way and as a basic belief system, religion had not played a big role in my life. In large part this is because I am put off by far right politicians and clergy who push their views and exclusively their views as “Christian”. Although I believe my opinion of those far right politicians and clergy is correct, it was not right to let it impact my approach to faith. Having serious medical issues brings a new focus. I believe that God has been has been at my side and especially at the most critical points (i.e. in the hospital after surgery and at Catscans) and have felt his direct presence. I also believe that prayer matters. As I said, I struggle with how to say this. I don’t want to be preachy or sound like a televangelist and am uncomfortable discussing faith issues, but feel it is important to say these things. My basic faith has not changed; rather it has taken a more central role in my life.

In my forays to the cancer clinic and chemotherapy units, I usually make a detour to my old hospital room where my recovery and miracle began. This reminds me of God’s grace and role in my health and I issue a short prayer of Thanksgiving. I believe that God is behind my recovery. I also believe that I should do all that I can to promote my long term health and survival. I don’t think these are contradictory thoughts.